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In
previous blogs about my journey leading up to and through radiotherapy I have
talked about how I was experiencing extreme weakness. However, when I look back
I can see that God was truly carrying me and strengthening me through that
time.
Some
time after having radiotherapy I did a piece of artwork that became very
symbolic to me of how God changed me through my radiotherapy treatment period.
The
artwork originated as a pastel work of a flower that I scanned into my computer
and then played around with. While doing this, one image in particular really
caught my eye. This was it:
To
me this picture represented a woman with her head bowed down in submission and
surrender. She has one arm stretching out, wanting to move forward; the other
arm reaching up to heaven giving thanks to God for His holding her future. To
me this portrayed a woman of strength. Even though this isn’t how the world
perceives strength, it was very much how my strength was growing.
I
had my eye on the future and was reaching out towards it, wanting to move into
wellness again. But at the same time didn’t have the strength in myself to do
so. It was only in submitting and surrendering to God and allowing His joy to
fill me (what the yellow in the picture represents) that I found the strength
to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
10
years on from my having radiotherapy and doing this piece of art, I feel that this
picture, done all those years ago, still represents me. I continually want to
move forward in my life and to move on from pain and weakness and into a place
of joy, strength and freedom. However, in order to do so I continually have to
surrender to God and rely on Him for strength. All the while I am being filled
with joy - which is what the yellow in this picture represents.
